Beginning to Loose that Same 40+Ten

Let's face it. I blog because I went on a diet in January 2007. A diet that worked for but a moment. I realized during my Mom's illness--that writing helped me process the raw, crazed emotions that I felt from minute to minute. When I began my Medifa$t diet in 2007--writing helped me deal with my physical hunger, I bonded with the other foodies on the Diet website struggling to live in KETOSIS, to sort through the mental stronghold food had over me my entire life, writing kept me laughing and finding humor while trying to fit into a pair of size 14 jeans. Soon after I'd written 10 or so entries on the Diet Blog Site--I moved over to Blogger and here I've rested ever since.

I've tried several times since that smokin' successful year to recapture my "dieters edge," as I so brilliantly called it back then. But fun food and drink and non-exercising desires always prevailed in my half hearted attempts to begin again. My Blog is my diary, a journal, a letter to God, a conversation with my Mom, my rage and hurt, it's pictures and memorabilia and the scanned drawings that Toot's creates. A virtual scrapbook which revolves around ME! I guess you could say it is the work in progress transcript? Without the flowery language and verse references.

The last weeks of summer are upon us. We've lived fast and furious--me and the pods. We've travelled and glom-ed (a bear term meaning: to glom--a verb. to be unproductive and vegetative). The entries I've missed this year--Bit's Sweet 16 Gala, Toots Does Montana, Italy-Pa-Loosa.....all words to write and pictures to show. Facebook is such a quick fix--however, I can't bottle it up someday and show my "wall" to the pods.

This 50 to be shed--I began today by run/walking 4.0 miles in 70 minutes. I never fret at the thought of doing a 5k--and I thought it might be nice to do a few this fall. As I listened to a FABULOUS PLAY LIST on my iPad that I made just for my August workouts--I also made a mental list of all the goals that I have for the coming fall and winter. I didn't go beyond March--but I surely made some mental lists.

The first and foremost would be to loose 50. 50 means loose fitting size 14 jeans. There has been discussion of possibly doing a half marathon the last weekend of February, in the world's happiest spot--Walt Disney World--a run complete with a tutu and crown. In order to cross the finish line--I'll have to run 13--16 minute miles--consecutively without missing a mark. Don't get me wrong--I could walk a half marathon tomorrow--It would take me 6 hours (tops)--I'm mean enough and stubborn enough--that I'd finish 13.1 miles. But in order to succeed at Disney you have to make the time given OR else a Disney Mobile will come along the course and scoop you up and place you into the Disney wagon and bring you to the finish line at Epcot. I want no part of that. None Whatsoever. It would be like being fished out of the Jersey shore in Avalon--ugh.

And so it'll begin. For the remainder of August--walk/runs on the treadmill, a swim here and there, I seriously doubt that I'll touch my bike. I have Curves and my feet. I have a treadmill and a trainer on call if I need her. School will begin and the diet will commence. Water intake upped and alcohol intake decreased. I've yet to research if I'll continue Medifa$t or if I'll do this other thing my neighbor seems to be having success on and she doesn't seem to have her shit together at all. The LapBand got shot down by BCBSNC--however, I did loose my Gall Bladder in the process but that is another story altogether for an other blog entry.

And so it shall begin. The quest for ONE-der-Land before January 1, 2011. ready go.......